I’ve been feeling this way for years. All of the above. Why does everyone get love but me? I don’t like myself very much, don’t really trust myself, feel like everything I do is wrong. I’m not comfortable in my own skin and I always thought I was. I’m trying too damn hard to be what I think I’m supposed to be, instead of what I want to be. But what do I want to be?! I’ve ignored my own needs and wants for so long and been living in fear of making a mistake and the world coming to an end. You are not alone. I finally started seeing a psychologist and and finally undoing what’s been done. It IS possible! Keep writing.